END of army...START of uni..!!!

Taking some time out just to update on the recent happenings!! Well,these few months have really been packed with events..from ending of army..to starting of school!!

ORD LO!!! Finally,i completed my national service on 8th june 2013. Got back what i have been looking for which is my pink IC!!! Well, actually on the day which i got my ic back..i didnt really feel anything special..to say the truth,it was just like a normal day for me..but i guess the 2years which i spent in army have changed me somehow..i will never forget the times spent during training days especially in bmt,when everything was so regimental and the culture was totally different from outside world.Lucky enough, i had a good company with good section and platoon mates! Scorpion Coy!! I was very lucky that i met really great people like chris,yi sheng(sec sch friend),fabian and my other sections mates.We really worked together throughout the times we spent in tekong.Although i went in earlier cuz of my fitness,i did not regret a single bit as the people i met there were really close and we shared a special bond as we cheered and motivate each other when the training gets tough! After Bmt,i went to sispec,mp command,paya lebar airbase before i settled down at changi airbase. The days spent in changi airbase was really fun and fruitful as the time i spent with the troopers or should i called brothers were really something for me to rmb! i made a handful of good friends and i learn alot from them as well. From the jokes we shared,the crap we talked,the training we went through and the laughter we shared,it wasnt something that can be bought with money and i really missed the time spent with them. To me,i felt that i had not really been a good specialist or a commander. As a commander,when the need arise,one should be able to hold the responsibility and make decision. For me,i felt that i wasnt confident enough in the way i handle things at times and i wasnt firm enough to make any decisions. Thus,leading to some things not done properly and causing the troopers under me to suffer with me.Nevertheless, i learnt things from the troopers and was motivated by their attitude towards their jobscope. Being a security trooper isnt an easy task at all,imagine standing at a place guarding for 6hrs straight...whther its raining or sunny...it takes a lot of perseverance and determination for them to complete the duties handed to them. Kudos to kar fai,yu hui,chunjie,si wei,lianjie,elroy,patrick,weijie,fabian,yanyang,zhenkai,kurt and many many more..really proud of them!!! Not forgetting the PCs' and specialist plus staff that i had worked with,i really learnt alot from them.

Moving on,i went for my holiday with afew of them..it was really tiring but fun! my first time taking an aeroplane and going taiwan for the first time!! Let the pictures in fb do the talking!

Next is Uni liao!! Went for the orientation camp which i did not regret going too..had a fun time and met really nice friends there as well..as a matter of fact,a few of us are still keeping in touch with each other despite the fact that we are studying different degrees! Peeps like sherdion,fred,mabel, that we mostly hang out with..to occasionally seen peeps like peiwen,xinyi,gerin,joey,nadine,carmen...all of us can still see each other in school at times :) Also, i met my pri school friend as well..Shi Qi!! hahaha...was surprised to see her during the orientation camp and after that,managed to meet her in school a couple of times as well..well..still can recognised each other..so still not too bad uh!...other than these happy times,jiu shi study and projects le..had never been so lost and stressed by projects since poly days..even in poly,the projects were much simpler and easier to conquer..right now in uni,after army..we all seem lost and dunno what to do for it..luckily,i have good mates like teh,kwi,fred and sherdion...they are always on the ball and knows whats going on..without them,i can say i am still lost somewhere..wandering around..like a lost kid!

Ever since i entered uni,i haven been really happy..partly due to studies and partly distracted by some other stuff...the kind of motivation i had in poly..i just cant seem to get it back for uni..the feeling of lost during projects or lessons,had not gone down well with me..i know i can do better,but somewhere i am still stuck in a unclear state of mind. Being distracted by other stuff isnt helping me at all..i tried really hard to ignore the thing and force myself to at least forget for a moment...but the more i try to resist,the more it came back to haunt me...since 6yrs ago, i had not have this kind of issue at all..because i wasnt interested back then and i was fully focused only on my studies...but now, i regretted that i had committed too fast and too early..talking to my close friends had helped a little bit,but most of the time..unknowingly,it just flash past my mind again & again...whenever i wanted to put a stop to it,i end up making the same mistake again...

Today shall be the day i really put a stop to the issue and be fully focused on my studies..my mum once told me in mandarin"na de qi jiu yao fang de xia". It was really a good quote and i always rmb this quote from her till now! So lets bid goodbye to the unpleasant stuff and say hello to the new things that is going to happen in future!! Additionally, emo isnt a nature in me..i cant stay emo for long..no matter what happens,i will still laugh and crap as usual...And yea, to my buddies and friends,"xin fu shi zhang wo zai ni shou li,bu yao qing yi fang qi!" :)

想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你

想到了第二次见到你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离

这是爱情还是你太美丽
让我作出不可思议的事情
我只知道我要看你开心
我什么都愿意 只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心